The Caller: BACKSTAGE

CABARET...

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 22:44:59 GMT

The last thing i expected was breaking into hurtful tears when i saw the movie that touched some far memories and sour nerves.

I totally forgot that side of the world and the image that hid in my mind from my childhood minor related experience.

The movie exaggerated things a little bit but that's understndable in movies...it was the best direction i've seen in Egyptian for a long time...casting was superb...no one was misplaced...amazing acting by everyone but Donia sameer, maged elkedwani, fathi abdelwahab and the master khaled elsawy really really stood out with being so real to similar types of people without overdoing it.

One master scene intreged my tears right to the end was when fathi talked to ahmed bedeer about alrezq...it was zoomed on his eyes and features...it hit the nerves of the past encounteres with good people dumped in evil places because they just don't know how else to make a living or just because they lost hope in a better life.

At the end...one thought pounded in my head...when death is present...all matters, excuses, false values and what seems to be sacrifices...FADE!

Vanish!

Jomana murad- in her role- kept the truth about her not so good profession from her old sick mom...but her mom died while she was " entertaining " men at the cabaret!

An accident drove her dead mom's corpse to her while she's dancing half naked and only then did she feel nude and needed something to " tustor" her self with...but she didn't find any...in the cabaret!

I couldn't help but remember my dad as they used some of his music in the film and his name also :)

and I couldn't help but think of my late uncle as well...remember that post?! it was backstaging death!!

It's a condensed manifestation of how fake life is...and how painful.

by the end of the day...I watched and heard one of the best- for an Egyptian movie- Intro, music, sound and direction in a long time.

* Don't expect feeling the same if you decide to watch it!

Cabaret

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 15:56:00 GMT

Nothing reminded me of the BACKSTAGE series of posts i used to write for a loooooooong time...till i saw the ad for the new Egyptian movie called the same as this post: Cabaret

I will watch the movie tonight and get back to you with a review...

Movie theaters now in egypt are active with various summer releases...only a few would make me hit the cinema but that one was a must see.

with jammed thoughts i write this post...will be around soon Inshallah.

have a good evening.

One day i'll fly away..

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 21:41:00 GMT

Why Live life from dream to dream

And Dread the day..the dreaming ends!

One Day I'll fly away

Nothing special..

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 01:27:00 GMT

I have nothing special to say..but i wanted the 2007 to show on my archive..

It is nice..to have a fresh year..with fresh hopes and dreams..

We all hope for something more special to happen everywhere..among us and around the world..we all want the best to all humanity..

I too share those hopes..the ordinary simple hopes..

But i have some special desires of my own and i have my own calculations about the previous year..yeah..ain't that nice..it is previous..one hour ago it was named something else!!

I wanna have every 7alal joy..i wanna make up to myself..all the prayers i haven't prayed and all the fasting i haven't fast..all the zekr i haven't said..and i would really really love to go for a 3omra and 7aj..

I changed my mind..i will get married if allah wills..i will be a great mommy after all..i will continue to do great at my work if allah wills..

I decided that it was time to stop being that different!!

I needn't be that easy..or that fragile..gotta be stronger..wiser..enough childish feelings and actions..the fact is i am a grown up..gotta face it and declare it to myself..

Those past few days i realized i am more religious now that i have been for years although back then i was covered from head to toe..although i would stay at home for months without having any kind of fun..only serving my loved ones which was pleasant no doubt..

But i am better now..know why?!

Back them i wasn't tested..100% 7alal living..but with no tests..i had no idea what my soul found weakening..what would tempt me..just lived like a nun..a Muslim nun!!

Now..i learned a lot about myself..now i chose not to do but what pleases allah and sometimes it is hard to say NO to myself..sometimes it's very very hard..but i do.only for allah's sake..cause i love him and fear him..i now know i have taqwa in my heart..i now learn from my mistakes when i rarely do..because i now i do mistakes...back then i didn't and i always used to doubt my faith cause i was never tested..now..when ever i pass a test i thank allah and feel great love in my heart for him..

I knew that we are wrong to judge by appearance or shown manners..cause i may not be face veiled anymore but i sure have 7aya2..thank allah for his blessings..

i may listen to a song from now and then..but i don't lie..

Some thin gs are more settled in my mind now..now..when i don't listen to music it becomes a more aware choice..not hiding a flow..

I deal with my backstage history differently..it made ME..the rich spirit i am..the person who never looks down to anyone..who has love and patience for everyone ..who calls by her soul not only her words..

Now..i am able to love..with no shame..as i have chosen not to make anything wrong..now i am able to say..i love him!! with no sense of shame..why would i?!

i sense with more respect to him and to my feelings..i know i am pure and true..and that is enough to make me live it proudly to the max!!

I enjoy what simple pleasures i have with all my heart..my friends and work..

I can calmly have a long talk with my son and daughter with no hesitation..i answer each question with a straight honest look in the eye..

What can i say..i pray allah grants me what is best for my religion and my life..

I pray allah grants us all what makes us more true..more pure and human..

2007..be that for me...if allah grants me more living..

FRENCH...

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 19:25:00 GMT

Everything was so french..

Everytime i would walk down that long lighted street i would ask myself..why have i agreed to come again..

Maybe that french vanilla flavour in their ice-cream..their sparkeling lights and their sidewalk kisses..

The sound of their cool chats..although it is the city of light..but it's not loud..sounds are respected..

And roses and choclates..were adding to the view some sweetness..especially when u pass by one of these proud painters that would make u the greatest portrait with no word spoken..their magical hand would make a few touches on the paper and voila!!

Every artist i saw on the street or in some mall dress that french flavour..

I couldn't help but staring when i would see some artist who can't read or write and he talks fluent french...

And i will never forget wadee3 elsafi sitting next to me in this cafe with his son..they looked so alike and they sounded so alike and they started telling us their love story with paris..

George..his son was already living their for years and he played the violin professionally..

He was so nice..and he kept humming some of his songs which made the french vanilla in the air..cinnamonly spicy:)

That elegant language become colder when u hear it their..but i am sure that if i would go to paris now..i would have a great time..no doubt!!

Who would i wanna take with me??!!

Hmmmm..

Interesting thought;)