http://thecaller.jeeran.com/NADAHA/categories/Midnight_or_after/It is an invitation to approach the core of your heart..Sat, 17 May 2008 08:50:19 GMTCopyright 2008 Rashajeeran RSSGenerator v1.0http://thecaller.jeeran.com/photos/profile_t.jpghttp://thecaller.jeeran.com/NADAHA/categories/Midnight_or_after/http://thecaller.jeeran.com/NADAHA/archive/2008/5/555997.html555997<DIV>I've been stronger lately...I manage through the night without crying, I stop memories from aching me and i keep my distance from every trace of it.</DIV> <DIV>Although i have more time now to wallow in sadness and regret all i want.</DIV> <DIV>I remember few months ago when i was working 14 hours a day minimum yet i couldn't get it off of my head day and night...drives to and from work witnessed lots of tears and heartache.</DIV> <DIV>It's the decision i made without even stating it loud and clear in my mind...I don't want to have anyone or anything in my life except for my work and kids.</DIV> <DIV>I don't know if it's possible to decide such a thing...but i did.</DIV> <DIV>Years ago i was sad over a failed marriage...after that i was aching for never having the love I've always dreamt about, the emptiness killed me...then i was given what i strived for and the feeling was beyond my wildest dreams that it blinded me to a disastrous situation and i ended up shattered.</DIV> <DIV>I guess i learned...and may be I've had enough and that's why i don't want anything of that kind anymore.</DIV> <DIV>what's left is some traces here and there that showers me with mixed feelings- like the feelings I'm having now- yet time passes by and I manage to distract myself pretty well.</DIV> <DIV>It's skill i wish i had before...when to focus and when to loose it when i need to.</DIV> <DIV>It's hard, hard to look the other way when voices, flags and hands grab your attention their way...it's hard to stop LIVE memories from weakening your will...hard to choose not to access a wide opened door...hard to stop every song or piece of music the minute it starts cause u know it's gonna hurt.</DIV> <DIV>Hard, but will be done!</DIV> <DIV>and tomorrow will be a new day Inshallah.</DIV> <DIV> </DIV> <DIV>Good night.</DIV> <DIV> </DIV> <DIV> </DIV> <DIV> </DIV>Fri, 02 May 2008 00:17:00 GMThttp://thecaller.jeeran.com/NADAHA/archive/2008/5/555997.html#commentsRasha<aroza@msn.com>Midnight or afterNew Phaseمن بعيد